Monday, February 27, 2012

Survival Week

Last week is over...and what a long week it was. My parents and I watched the kids (my niece, age 7, and nephew, age 9) all week while my sister, Beth, and her husband, Rob, went on a cruise.

As most of you probably know by now, I'm not much of a kid person. Not to say I don't like kids, I just like them in moderation...and then only if they're pleasant to be around. I do enjoy my friends kids, and even babysit them from time to time. However, the reason I can do that is because it's always for just a few hours at a time, then I get to give them back to their parents and be on my marry way. But this last week was a bit different; we had the kids 24 hours a day, non-stop for 8 days. I wake up, they're there. I eat, they're there. I go to bed, and they're there! This is one of the big reasons why I do not want children of my own; most days I'm doing good to just take care of myself, I don't need, or want, the constant responsibility of having to watch over a child. Please don't get me wrong, I think it's great if other people want to do it, it's just not for me.

With the previous experiences, in various forms, of dealing with children that I've had in the past, I've had a pretty good idea of what it's like to have a child, at least to a small extent. This last week, however, gave me a very good "trail" of what it's really like, and though I passed, it just confirms that I am not the mothering type and definitely would not want that kind of life for myself. I know everyone tells me "it's different when it's your own child" and I'm sure that's true, but to be perfectly honest, it boils down to the fact that I am just to selfish to want to give up my life, my freedom, my sleep, etc. for very long if I don't feel like it...and most of the time, I don't feel like it! I have always respected the parents that I know, because I know that however hard I may think their job is, I probably still have no idea how difficult it truly is. And the experience of this past week just gives me even more respect for the parents that are actually being parents and committing to a life a servitude to take care of their children.

We made it through this week, even with my momma and myself being sick, with bronchitis, and my daddy still having to be home and taking it easy after his motorcycle accident. It was pretty rough at times, three sick adults does not one healthy adult make. But even with all the coughing and achy bodies, we managed to make the best of our time together and actually had some fun! The children, bless their hearts, even said that they'd rather live with us and just go visit their daddy and step-mother (my sister) every once in a while. I know that came out of mostly just the problems they have at home, but it was still really sweet to hear.

As much as I did truly enjoy getting to spend time with them and know them better, I am glad they are gone now. I don't do too well with the invasion of my space, my home, or especially my bathroom! But I put up with it at times because I love the people that come visit us and in the end it's worth the hassle to be able to spend time with them.

I will miss the munchkins, and my sister and her husband, and I'm glad I had this opportunity to be with them this past week. As much as I don't want children of my own, I think I'm going to enjoy being the fun aunt.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

New Hope

So I'm finally trying to get myself to get back into church. God and I haven't been on the best of terms lately, I haven't been in church (or doing much of anything spiritual) for over a year now and I just feel like I need to get back into a good church family and back to God.

Mamma and I have gone to a little church that's just down the street from us for two weeks in a row now and we're really liking it so far. It seems like just the kind of place I was looking for; very welcoming, non-judgmental, a place for imperfect people, and of course Bible based.

Well so the other day mamma and I went to a ladies luncheon with this church (to the Olive Garden, oh ya! lol) and, I hate to say it, but to my surprise I had a great time! I was thinking it was going to be just a few people and all much older than me...not that I have a problem with older people, I can get along with pretty much anyone if I want to, but they don't always want to get along with me. But there were about 20 of us, and though they were all a good bit older than I, we got along great and I really enjoyed meeting all of them and getting to spend some time with them. They truly seem like an amazing group of godly women.

I am still struggling with a lot of things in my life, one of which being who I am in Christ and thus how I should be living my life. But regardless of how I think of myself at any given moment, I do know, somewhere deep down, what the truth it or not...and I can choose to believe it, or ignore it. Its up to me.

Now I am about to get ready to go to church again this morning. My sister and her family are here this week so we thought it would be nice for us to all go together...we could all use a little prayer.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Twilight Laughs

Since Breaking Dawn Part 1 just came out and The Hillywood Show has released their parody for it, I thought I would share all of their Twilight Saga parodies with you. These are just too funny, I die laughing every time I watch them! Enjoy!!! :D

(my personal favorite)

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Only A Vampire Can Love You Forever

I hope everyone had a good Valentine's Day. I did. Though as you probably guessed, I'm not really one for the whole Vday thing seeing as how I think love is mostly just a crock of shit. However I did decide to go up and spend it with Lee since he was wanting to see me.

We didn't do anything Valentine's specific. We stayed in bed all day and watched all four of the Twilight Saga movies. Now if that's not devotion from a man I don't know what is. lol. He had actually said when Breaking Dawn: Part 1 came out at the theater that he would like to see it...but I didn't really take him seriously. But when he told me to bring all the movies with me this week, I did! So eight hours of Twilight movies in one day, with only a break to go to lunch, and he's still speaking to me! lol. The only downfall to it all was that by the end of Eclipse he decided that he was...Team Jacob...not that I don't like Jacob, but I don't like Jacob. lol. I don't dislike him, I just don't like him either. So there we were, after all those movies and his bed then divided into Team Edward and Team was too funny! 

It was a very lazy day, but it was fun and, at least for me, great to re-watch all the Twilight movies in a row! Now there's just one more movie and it will be complete!  

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

The Natives Were Restless

The Sarasota Native American Indian Festival was last weekend, and of course it was great. I truly love going every year, I look forward to it for months before its finally here. 

My choker
The highlight of the day was getting to meet the lady, Venus Brightstar, who had made my choker and bracelet some 15 years ago. The back-story; my daddy and I use to go to festivals, fairs, and shows all the time when I was younger. With my Cherokee heritage I especially liked going to the Native American shows. At one show we went to my daddy bought me a choker and a matching bracelet, beautifully crafted and completely my style! I still have them to this day. I wear them, if no other time, every year to the festival here. So back to the present; of course it was much to long ago for me to remember anything about the person we bought the choker from (I don't even remember what happened last week lol), but apparently some people have a much better memory then I. The moment I walked by this lady's booth she looked at me and asked me a question about my choker, when I answered she proceeded to ask me a few more questions (like when I got it, etc.). When I told her where I got it and how long ago, she told me that that was one of hers. After that we got to talking and looking at the items she had in her booth, and sure enough, it was the same maker! And it just so happened that this was her last show, she is getting out of the jewelry game and moving on to other things. What a cool coincidence to run into here after all these years at her last show. Anyway, to make a really long story a little shorter, I had fun talking with her. I wanted to get another item from her...unfortunately I'm a broke ass right now so I couldn't afford anything, even with the gracious discounts she offered. But it was still a great experience!

Little Big Mountain
The downside of the day, as expected, was the mixture of Lee and I. Lee and I are much to similar at times, we are both pessimistic, get cranky when we get tired or hungry, these among other things. So when Lee comes down after he gets off work (3rd shift) needless to say he is already starting to get tired. He got to our house about 9am that day, we had a nice breakfast that momma made and then went to the festival. Well, it didn't take too long before it was obvious that he was getting tired. Not to bash on the man too much I'll just say we started to but heads. So we miss seeing Little Big Mountain's presentation, which I really wanted to see again this year (and thought that Lee would like to see as well). Then, right before I meet the lady I was just talking about, he wonders off. I didn't think much of it at the time, but after I leave the next booth I go looking for him...apparently he decided to start walking back home, as I see when I can't find him and finally take out my phone to call him, and he had sent me a! The idiot is lucky I like him so much cause I don't put up with that bullshit for just anyone. I call him at this point and we talk for a few minutes, luckily he hadn't gotten too far so he came back and we finished looking around.

This was definitely not the best day, but I am glad I got to the festival this year and that Lee and I were able, yet again, to work through issues that arose. Ugh...I really hate drama.